Although my past is not very
exciting or the most interesting, it has affected who I have become. All my
years from my kindergarten days until the ends of my middle school years were
more or less average. I had very few friends and I dedicated most of my time to
everything and anything relating to school, especially anything having to do
with science. However, during the last couple months of my time at middle
school, I was allowed to join the guitar players in my band class, and that's
when everything changed for me. I became immersed with music (indie rock,
post-hardcore, rock, hardcore) and I taught myself how to play guitar with some
help from the other guitarists, who quickly became close friends of mine. Music
and guitar allowed me a release from the uptight world that I had kept myself
in for years, even allowing me to feel like I art could help me in a way; thus,
poetry came into my world too. In 2009, when high school came along, I was
still friends with those that helped me open up and even ran cross-country for
most of my high school because of them. for my first year and a half at high
school, everything was going fine, but after a certain point I started to feel
alone and abandoned by those close to me. I fell into a deep hole and I turned
to poetry and music to help feel something. I formed a band with a long-time
friend of mine and another friend as well to occupy myself. It was one of the
best mistakes I had made, I say "best mistakes" because the band
failed terribly, but I had gained one of the greatest friends I have had so
far. This friend helped me through any personal issues that I was going through
at the time; saving me a couple times as well. She knew me better than my most
anybody and pushed me out of my hole in order to continue to do great for the
remainder of my high school, up until our graduation from Rio Mesa High School
in 2013.
My present has mainly become
college (after skipping an entire year), currently striving for a major in
biology. College feels extremely different to me, especially after taking some
time off from school, but it hasn't been too hard adjusting to everything as I
was expecting it to be. However, it hasn't been completely easy either due to
falling back into a hole once again, but distractions are good, in my opinion.
My present has also been consisting of pushing myself to want to improve my
poetry skills. Other than this, my present consists of little details that get
lost within my everyday life.
Writing about the future, my
future, has always been somewhat of a challenge to me due to the
unpredictability of life and its obstacles. Nevertheless, as my title quotes,
"the best way to predict the future is to invent it," I do believe
that we have the power to shape our future into what we dream it to be, whether
it will always remain a dream or someday become our reality. With that being
said, I see myself earning my degree in biology and possibly transferring to
Channel Islands University or UCLA, with the possibility of focusing on
bio-engineering or teaching biology. It could go either way from my view of it
at this point.
- 2014, A&G
